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It is nice out. I made sun tea. I just had to . Actually I made it yesterday. The sun was shinning.Today not so sunny. Good thing I made it yesterday.
Mom is napping . I vacuumed. And swept the kitchen floor. Our Water hose to the ice maker had a leak so we had a mess yesterday morning in the floor. I turned off the water. And my son took it apart to find the hole. We just have to run to the hardware store to get a new hose and it will be fixed. He wanted to plug the hole or cut the hose at the hole and make it shorter. But he has not done that yet . He had to go do stuff at his Frat. house. They keep him busy on the weekends.Anyway we have lots of ice so no hurry.
Moms nurse starts coming only once a week this next week since mom is not getting any worse. No changes in awhile.The aid is still coming twice a week. I don't care how often they come just as long as they bring goodies. Diapers,handiwipes,med. and such.
If they stop coming I will be up the creek without a paddle. Having to buy all that stuff again will be a pain not to mention having to start taking mom to the doc. again. I don't think mom or me can handle that. I don't want mom to get worse but I don't want Hospice to stop coming. We are stuck between a rock and a hard place.

Up And Down.

I want to think all my blog friends for there nice comments on my silly post. Don't know why I posted my last post but it was something to post. I am running out of things to say. Nothing different happens anymore. Mom just stays the same. Which is a good thing. No worst for the wear.

My sister was here all day yesterday. I did not go to the mall like I had planned but it was nice my sister being here. She cannot get mom up and down by herself nor can anyone else . The Lift scares her. She and my brother have dumped mom in the floor before. My sister has actually called 911 because she thought mom was hurt. I have dumped her more than once but not for along time. And since my sister hurt her back she can not do a lot of moving ,pushing and lifting without the Lift like she used to. Which you have to do a lot of. Also I can have people from Hospice come sit with mom but they are just volunteers they will only sit no lifting with or without the Lift. No feeding or changing either. Of course the Aid can do everything but she can not sit with mom while I run out she is a busy women many more baths to give to other people. But My sister feeds, changes and dresses mom . I can come and go whenever I please so when she is here I am really free to do what I want. But I need to be home when it is time to move her from one place to the next. Bed, wheelchair or easy chair. If mom was in a nursing home she would be bed bound all day but not here we keep moving her around. It gets on your nerves a bit and that is where the crying comes in. If I am alone and I am about to get her out of bed for the 100th time I start to cry. I just don't want to do it. But than I do so she won't get a bed sore. No bed sores yet. Thank the Lord.


I don't cry because I am lonely. I have family and friends come and go a lot. But like my Bear Waltz blog friend said they rarely understand whats going on. My Friends are here for me so that is good. One of my school friends is bringing mom some canned peaches sometime this week because she loves her peach puree. And I have a couple friends I used to work with that likes to bring me Take-out. But family sometimes makes me nervous . They just come in I think so they can say they came to check on mom and they are gone. But if I need them I can call on them anytime . I do know that. And if I said I am going to be gone all day they would stay but than mom would just sit in her chair all day or bed . I can't stand that. I have done it but it ruins my day because I need to get home to move mom. Or change her. What if she went to the bathroom while in her chair. She really needs to be put to bed and changed. Anyway today is not a crying day so far. It is raining outside. Tears from Heaven. I like that.

Is It Friday Yet?

This has been a awful week. I have cried and pigged out and cried and pigged out some more. As soon as my son came home last night I went to Wal-mart to get mom some yogurt and applesauce . We used all our peaches that I got from the canning company wholesale store. If I had not made a peach pie they would of lasted longer but it was a very good pie.
Anyway it can't be because I am stuck here that this has been such a long week. I have been running in and out. I got invited to go to lunch with friends but could not get away for that long. It is good to have friends thinking of me. Thanks everyone.
Maybe because the sun was shining and I wanted or needed to do more. Tomorrow is my yearly checkup so I get to go to the Doc. Yippee!!! My sister is feeling better so she is going to come stay with mom. This weekend I am going to the Mall and Mall Walk with my niece and her friends . That will make me feel better . I love to people watch and window shop. And I have a couple birthdays to buy for. I think we might go see a movie and eat out. Since my sis has had a whole week off I am going to make a day of it. Of course she was sick so I might be nice and not make a day of it. I don't know I am getting happy just thinking about it. I feel better all ready.

Retirement Is Scary.

I guess you could say I am retired. I stopped working so I could care for mom but I am planning to go back to work when I can. I miss my paycheck. Having a paycheck coming in is wonderful.




My sister retired in Oct. this past year and has been sick ever since. First she hurt her back and was down for weeks and now she has a Urinary Track Infection. She had to go to the ER they gave her lots of med's. UTI are one of the causes that Alz's patients die. At end of life you have to decide to treat the infection or let it run it's course. I am not ready to make that choice yet. Mom used to get them all the time. So far she has not had one in awhile. I am so glad.

Anyway back to retirement. My dad wanted to retire so bad he did early and was killed in a farming accident a little over a year later. My brother in-law retired last year and is bored to death he is depressed and has nothing he likes to do. So far the only one that likes being retired is my brother who retired about 2 years ago. But he is raising his teenage granddaughter and she is keeping him busy with church and school activities. I was so happy when my brother retired because I thought he would come over and help with mom more but he just gets mad and stays away. I also was happy when my sister retired because we had great plans on caring for mom. If only my sister would get healthy again maybe we can start doing some of our plans .

When I get a chance I am going back to work. Like I said retirement is scary.

Health Website

I came across this website from Kimberly Clark. It has lots of good info on the importance of washing your hands and much more to keep infections away. Thought you all might want to check it out. http://www.haiwatchnews.com/



It is a nice day out. All are snow is melting. The sun is shining. Mom is in bed but not napping . She has been wide awake all week. No naps. I don't know whats going on. She is still talking to us and even moving around a little. Which is a big deal. :)



Happy Valentines Day Every One.

Eating Like A Baby Bird.

Moms has had another change . I don't know what to think of her sometime. For months we have been trying to get her to eat. It use to take hours to feed her until I decided not to force feed her anymore. But now she just opens her month for every bite. Like a baby bird. Of course it has to be something sweet. She is still on her Maple and Brown Sugar Oatmeal diet. But who cares. And the Thicken is working so well. No more getting chocked. I have found that if I make it thick enough for a spoon she likes it better. The peach puree and yogurt are hit too. I even crush her pills and put in it. She used to not eat her crushed pill in anything because of the taste. So I mix it in her drink. But now it is back to Applesauce or puree.

A pill crusher is a must have device. I have two .

G.A.

My friend G. A. died a few days ago. She slipped on some ice hit her head and never recovered.



I have not seen her in years. She moved to Dallas along time ago and I just found out today at her visitation that she moved back here less than a month ago to be near her mom.



Just the other day when I was having lunch with another friend and her husband he ask me who I hung out with in school. I forgot her!! And she was one of my closest friends. How awful is that?



Today I want everyone to know that G.A. was one of my dearest, closest and best friends. I will miss her deeply. I will never forget her again and may she be in God's arms tonight. And please pray for her family.

Peach Puree

My friend from school took me to a store that sells canned food by the cases. Allen Canning Company in Siloam Springs Arkansas. It's kind of a outlet store for the canning company.



Anyway I got lots of needed canned food. Mom is going to have peach puree at breakfast tomorrow. I am sure she is tired of applesauce. I am. :)



We also had a nice lunch. And my sister and her grand -daughter cared for mom. I must say they did a nice job. She is napping in her easy chair now. So all is good.
The Nurse comes tomorrow but not the aid. Mom's Aid changed her days from Mon. and Thurs. to Mon. and Fri. This maybe better for mom . Not so many visiters in one day. Never know with mom. She was talking alot when I got home . I believe she enjoyed my sister being here . A break from me. :)



My son is joining a fraternity tonight. I hope they don't haze him. We have watched to many movies about that. He is a pledge for a few weeks and has to do everything they tell him to. It will be great fun I hope. Cross your fingers that he does not have to run around campus in a dress .