In The Arms Of Jesus

Mom passed away yesterday Oct. 18th around 8:46am. It was a bit of a surprise I was not expecting it to happen so fast. And she just all of a sudden started breathing loudly and I thought she needed more pain meds. But the nurse said her heart beat was very faint and they could not get a blood pressure reading so she told me it would be soon. I called everyone to come but no on made it in time. My boyfriend was there with me so I was not alone. He is new but that is another story. Anyway I am very pleased at how peaceful she went. And I think the Lord for all he has done and the blessing's he has gave to use over the years. Thank you for all your thoughts and prayers.

Bear Hug Waltz

My very good blogger and facebook friend Donna lost her mother recently. Donna was the full time caregiver of her mom as I am of mine. I looked to her blog for advice, strength, comfort and just plan good reading. Donna is a very good writer . If you have not read her blogs you must. Just click on the title of this post and go for a visit.
Donna misses her mom. And the fact that she is free to do as she pleases anytime and for as long as she wants has not set in yet I don't think. I know these days are coming for me and I am a little scared. What will I do when mom passes. Can I go back to work or will I be a big chicken to do anything else after just caring for mom all these years. Sometimes when I drive to Wal-mart the traffic overwhelms me. All the people makes me nervous and I just want to go back home.
I hope I can be strong like Donna . She went to Church with her whole family this Sunday . No one had to stay home with mom. Missing mom is hard but getting to go to church with nothing to worry about at home must of been refreshing. I hope she forgives me for writing this post about her but she is one of my inspirations and I want her to know how proud I am of getting to know her. And I hope I can be as good a caregiver as she was.